3,221 Memories and Their Influence on Rest

Katie Hudak

Childhood Photographs, twine, thread, needles, cloth
2015

Everything I do sticks around; it manifests in memories, both conscious and subconscious. Each memory is affected and altered by my experiences before and further defined by ones that follow sequentially. These early experiences drive the underlying core of my internal self. It’s the subconscious and intrinsic responses that show up in external self. The outward manifestations of these root experiences happen and can be left unquestioned or analyzed to help further define the person that I want to become. The flurry and chaos of memories –both good, bad, and mundane)—support and inhibit the ways that I exist, take up space, and rest. Rest not in the sense of sleep, but existing without anxiety and second-guessing. Seeming to float on the surface, when you look underneath the covers, into the boundaries of our body cavities, there lie the experiences we hold to cherish, unlearn, and reconstruct. The foundations and scaffolding of ourselves.